Using the internet, I actively, consistently tried to end my my mental and physical isolation the communication online led to a lot of communication beyond my home everything changed in my life because I reached out.
Running brought me outdoors and social media channels became my platform to talk about how this sport was helping me help myself. Most of the time, you are unaware until it has yet again imprisoned you, in your mind. It drags you slowly to a path you keep trying to escape. It catches you, when you least expect it.
#METROGNOME WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FREE#
Many recover from depression but one is never truly free from it's claws it is a wicked enemy. I knew to be mentally strong, and continue being stronger, I have to be physically active. It will take a lot of years before I no longer felt shame in sharing this struggle, I fought and at times still fight against.ĥ years ago, I began with running because I knew, I had to fight stronger than I have fought before. Two decade ago, I started getting stuck in my own home for days, weeks, months because of my depression. run a race finishing in an Olympic Stadium.Īn 8K in the Amsterdam Marathon 2011 event Right: my 3rd race in the first year of my running, my first running dream fulfilled Taking on the sports of running and using social media to connect with others made me overcome my agoraphobia, my self-imposed social isolation, anxiety and panic attacks. Social anxieties, which all developed due to a long battle with bipolar disorder. In the beginning, I utilised social media as a tool to get over my social anxieties. This long process has been ongoing since 2013. Nor is this a spur of the moment decision. This decision to give up social media, were not born out of a whim. The plan and the promise was: continue running without having to use the internet to record or interact about my running. The culmination of documenting my running story was supposed to be after I ran Paris Marathon. The original plan, when I started this blog was to record my first year of running, to record my early pursuit of running a marathon. I, honestly, don't know the answers to these questions, at this point. Is this permanent? Is this a break? If it is a break, how long will this be? Today, I deactivated my various social media accounts, and removed social network applications, on my mobile. Working on the 13.1 X 13 goal, the daily grind of life and facing a lot of major life making decisions, kept me from writing, here. Autumn 2016, I achieved my goal of running 13 half-marathon distances. I was not yet half-way towards my running goal, then. The last blogpost I shared was last Spring - the day before I ran my fifth half-marathon race in 2016. Thank you for caring enough to do a search. If you have been wondering, if this running blog will ever publish a post again, or have been following me on social media, and wondered where I disappeared to, this blog is written specially for you. A collage I created in 2015 to empower myself to keep going, to keep running.
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